| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 5/2006 |
| Date of Death | 5/2006 |
| Visitors | 2,724 since 08/12/2007 |
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little freddie was born on the 18th may 2006 after a very normal pregnancy well thats what i thought being my first pregnancy they dont tell you about all the dangers of what can happen in a pregnancy having a stillborn was not what i imagened at all i was 37 weeks to the day when i started geting pains tuesday 16th of may ,i was at bingo with my mum and sister and around 8 o'clock i started having pains so i went to the toilet because i thought i had to empty my bows after half an hour being in the toilet my sister came in and saw that i was in pain so we got my mum and went home to get my hospital bag from the house and pick up my boyfriend grant by this time the pain was unbearable ,we arrived at the hospital the midwife tried to put the heart moniter on my belly but it was so painful they gave me gas and air for the pain so they could find the heart beat they couldnt find it so they rushed me down tp the scan room and thats where they had told me that my baby boy had died ( what could of possibly caused this? ) they told me that the placenta hd ubrupted and come away from the womb i also had high blood pressure (pre-eclampsia)i had only gone to my antinatal group the day before and every thing
after being told that my baby had died they told me that they were going to induce me in the morning by this time i was so out of it through all the drugs i was on morphine pethadine gas and air and what ever else nearly every breath i took was through the gas and air i couldnt remember the day after they told me my head was so fucked one minute i was happy thinking im gonna have my baby and the next i was thinking oh my god my baby is dead i really didnt wanna give birth i wanted a c-section but they said it was too dangerous for me so in the end they induced me 4 times with the gel and finally after 2 days nearly being in unbearable physical and mental pain freddie arrived at 6:25am on thursday 18th may 2006 weighing just 5lb 4oz he was 50cm long so perfect when he first came out i thought he was alive but then the reality started to sink in every one cried the first thing i heard was my nan she said arrr jan look every one cried my boyfriend left the room he couldnt cope my nan was my rock for them 2 days she stuck by me never left the room for 2 days she stayed with me all the time my mum and nan would take it in turns so i was never left on my own
after freddie was born i was then taken to a special room called the jade room where we was taken to spend our final moments with freddie we gave him cuddles and said our goodbyes i still remember that day like it was yesterday about mid day that day i went home the next day i hemoriged and was taken by ambulance to hospital and was put on the postnatal ward where i was kept in a kept awake crying my eyes out by the new born babies on the ward how heart breaking i was only 16 when all of this happened still a baby myself but iv never had to grow up so fast in all my life i feel as if im one of the strongest woman on earth to have lost a baby and then tried for another 3 months later i did feel guilty but i really wanted a baby i did fall pregnant again in sept 2006 i had loads of scans and on the 11th of may 2007 1 week before his brothers anaversary little riley freddie walker was born by c-section he is now 7 months old but i still do think and wonder about freddie every day and when riley grows up i will tell him that he had a brother that was gone far too soon
i would just like to thank my mum my nan my boyfriend , my sister and my brother who was there for me when i needed them also my midwife samantha smith who was my midwife through both pregnancys who was also pregnant at the same time as me when i was carring riley she moniterd me every week and made sure that little riley arrived safe and sound into the world
so please feel free to light candles and write nice things as this website really helps me expeshley when im feeling down
any one who knows how it feels to loose a child will know the true heartache that it causes and i do not wish it upon anyone but you cannot cheat death iv realised that if its your time to go even if you have never spent time on earth at all thats heavens wish but dont think that stillborn babies dont love you mummys and daddys they watch over us every day and help us in our journys through life untill its our time to cross over and be with them once again and one day i know i will see my little freddie again
R.I.P LITTLE BABY WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCHXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Member Of Life After Death~Baby Loss Forum
I am sorry for your loss I really am. Your little Baby is with all the other little ones that have sadly had to leave us .. I wish it were different for us all I really do.
Take care of yourself.
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sorry
we love u and allways b there 4 u any time nite or day love ya thinking of u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mum don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see
I'm right by your side each night and day
And within your heart I long to stay
My body is gone but I'm always near
I'm everything you feel, see or hear
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
As long as you keep me alive in your heart
I'll never wander out of your sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night
I'll never be beyond your reach
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach
I'm the colourful leaves when fall comes around
And the pure white snow that blankets the ground
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond
The clear cool water in a quiet pond
I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in spring
The first warm raindrop that April will bring
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine
When you start thinking there's no one to love you
You can talk to me through the Lord above you
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze
I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face
Just look for me, mum, I'm everyplace...
When a baby dies,
it's very hard to bear,
Because that baby may have been
an answer to your prayer,
Or else, perhaps, you loved it,
because it filled a need,
Or else, because you wanted it
to grow up and succeed.
But God, who lives in heaven,
can see a sparrow fall,
And knows our every heart-wish,
and sees us, one and all.
He wants us to be happy,
but has His own needs, too,
And maybe He needs baby's love
as much as we here do.
Or maybe He has called your child
to fill a mission there,
Or render faithful service,
bringing joy beyond compare
To Father's other children,
who loved your little one
Before it came to dwell on earth
to be your daughter - son.
Who knows what heavenly purpose
awaits your little child,
Whom God has taken home to Him,
where love is simply styled?
But this much is for certain,
you'll see your child once more,
In Heavenly Father's mansion,
when God has closed the door,
And drawn the veil of human tears
for you, and those you love,
So you can be together in mansions up above.
There is no pain nor sorrow,
if you have done your part
To be found worthy of His love
who holds you in His heart.
Let God become your partner,
your comfort, guide and stay,
And let the Savior of the World
help take your grief away.
Look forward to tomorrow,
and to that heavenly place,
Where God, the Father, and the Son
will bless you with their grace,
And where your little baby
awaits your 'coming home,'
To bless it with your loving care
beneath that heavenly dome
Which covers your own mansion
awaiting for you there,
Where Springtime is forever,
and skies are always fair
FROM YOUR CHILD
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On this Mothers Day I find it
very very hard,
For I can not give to you
a special gift or card,
Because I am now an Angel
I live in heaven above,
But my Darling Mother
I always send my LOVE
We have a bond between us
that nothing can ever break,
I will stay beside you
Thats a promise I now make
You have always been so special
my darling Mother of mine,
I will go on loving you
Until the end of time.
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Love you always Mummy
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Im so so so sorry for what you've went through.
I really, truly am. Im 37 weeks pregnant and the thought of me losing my baby now makes my eyes water. I can't believe they made you deliver, your such a strong person for doing what you done. Remember, hes with you, and he always will be. Your still his mummy.
I wish you and your family all the best, and i hope baby Riley is doing great-hes certainly looking beautiful!!
xx
sorry for your loss
Iam sorry for your loss i understand your pain as i lost a son at ten wks of age to cot death in dec 06 my thoughts sre with you all xxxxx
hi, having just read your story i can't think how difficult it must of been for you, your baby freddie is beautiful, i hope this year has a better story for you, love to you and your family god bless little freddie x x
my darling grandson
happy christmas freddie miss you so much hope you having fun with all the other baby angels love you lots nanny
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